It's time to rumble...again! Haha. I'm guessing you'll be predicting another heart-jerking-out-of-breath-hair-pulling-moment post! I know, i know my recent posts have been pretty depressing or rather *%&*!!#$@&!!?! in nature (or am I exaggerating a lil too much?).
And yes...here we go again! The past two weeks were very much the highest of high and the low low. Not really lowest of low...but just low. (suddenly that song is in my head...low low low). Geez!
Well, the high days were those days where I have those laugh-til-my-tummy-ache-real-bad moments. Here's one of 'em: We had a Bowling event a week plus ago and the game was played in such a way that you have to bowl in different sort of styles i.e. bowl backwards, between the legs, sitting down etc.. Knowing me, I just couldn't resist but laugh (out loud) at people that day. And the best thing is that when you're one of the judges or rather the organisers...you're pretty much entitled to do so..hehehee.
Ready..target locked....
Bowls away! (with some help from Derek)
What are you waiting for?
Another high moment was when the choir had their retreat last Saturday. I joined the afternoon session as I had to work on Saturday morning (one of the low). Am glad I chose to join the retreat that afternoon, as I almost decided not go at all..I still have lots to do at the office (sometimes I wish I could be David Copperfield and make those reports disappear or turn them into pretty craft supplies..or a cuttlebug would be perrrrfect! Dream on, Evonne...dream on).
So, there I was, at the choir retreat with Fr. Chua as our speaker. Let me tell you, any event that has Fr. Chua in it, would bound to be a laughing session! Plus one of our choristers, Janet, was there too and she too could be pretty hilarious. Add them both together and you would certainly get a laugh-til-my-tummy-ache-real-bad moment. We had who-can-blow-the-candle-at-a-distance competition (to test our strength), which we ended up singing happy birthday and laughed at how ridiculous we looked while trying our best to blow the candle out. Some even had to be restrained by Fr Chua on the head so as not to cheat by moving their bodies closer when attempting to blow the candle. We were taught the vocal exercise where you lie flat on your tummy, hands to the side with your head and legs lifted up while repeating "ah" (errr..) We kinda look like some singa laut terdampar kat pantai! These were just some of the moments that we had. It was all laugh worthy but just as important and knowledgeable for us as choristers.
Despite having all these high moments, the low seems to be able to seep through and bring you to a darker, sinister moment(s). There were days when I wake up, I feel my throat closing in and it's hard to breathe and I just couldn't get myself off the bed, while the to-do-lists, problems of the universe (especially having to face people from a total different planet - we kinda have that species a lot in the city where I live i.e frequencies don't match because they don't speak in human language - yes my imagination's gone a bit too adventurous but it's somewhere along that line. Go figure, if you've got the time) and fears starts pouring into your head making it even heavier and there were days where I wish I was living a total different life altogether. Oh man...those days were pretty nasty.
Somehow, I manage to get back to reality and put on the "keep calm & carry on" attitude on. Not easy but doable. And I realize that it's during these times that the Big Guy up there gives me a wake up call, a nudge to my heart (and head)...always through the daily devotionals I subscribe to. I am ever so thankful for that.. Kinda keeping me on solid ground, though I do feel at times I'm already near the edge.
So there, life IS a rollercoaster. Yes, Ronan Keating, we hear you. Been there done that, will go through it again because it's still the same ride which we only get to ride once.
p/s I hereby promise that my next post will be a less depressing & nicer one...much nicer. :)
